... tell my mind to shut the F*CK up?
Numb, unfeeling, slumped in the corner and unable to move - I can deal with that, ok?
It's this round and round and up and down and the strange thoughts and feeling like I'm floating along, my feet bouncing off an invisible pavement 18 inches off the ground. I feel detached, unable to connect with anyone, I feel weird. I feel like a freak. I feel worried. This is not normal.